A Personal Note: R.I.P My Beautiful Horse…Heartbroken, Lost And Devastated Without You!!

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It is with a broken heart that I write this myself, (albeit over several days) despite feeling lost, alone, terribly sad, heartbroken & in pain, I just wanted to let you all know; my beautiful horse (who saved my life) had to be put to sleep Thursday 17th July; she passed over Rainbow bridge around 6.30p.m. after a long battle with colic!

R.I.P Lillia, gone but never forgotten xxx

R.I.P Lillia, gone but never forgotten xxx

My apologies for taking so long to get in touch, but it’s taken all this time, for me to be able to think let alone write about Lillia; without breaking down! Some of you may have seen posts on FB, as my daughter put it on her FB page & shared it to mine.

Many of you know I suffer with pain, due to a riding accident, which lead to several failed back surgeries, throughout my life. There has often been times I haven’t been able to post due to pain or being in hospital! But now I have lost my best friend & life saver; I’m devastated…I just haven’t got the strength to cope with ill-health & a broken heart at the same time, to enable me to post; aside from the odd petition in the last few days!

Regards Lillia, I feel it may help me, to deal with her loss, if I write about it. To this day, I still can’t talk about her, without bursting into tears, I just wanted to be left alone to grieve in my own time! So I’m hoping this will ease my heart & reduce my tears…I hope it may also help other horses owners, that haven’t seen a horse colic & realise, just how small the signs, in their horses behaviour, can lead to severe colic!

It all started on the 23/07/2014. The vets had been called out for 3 days in a row, to see Lillia at the livery yard. Lillia was off her food & wasn’t drinking much, the livery staff also noticed a lack of faeces! It could have been anything from an upset tummy to very mild colic symptoms, going by how she was presenting! She was treated with the appropriate medications & walked accordingly, but by 7.30 p.m on Wednesday evening, she was no better; so the vet referred her for immediate investigative surgery! I felt so guilty, helpless & heartbroken that I couldn’t go with her; due to my own complications from recent surgery! My only solace, was that my daughter was with her throughout.

All I could do was sit near the phone all night, praying for a miracle. Eventually at 1.40 a.m the vet called, Lillia had been in theater for 4 hours!  Once in theater the vets noted she had suffered from a right dorsal displacement of the large colon & had an impacted Cecum, that could have ruptured at any time. They were extremely lucky they caught it before it did. I found it so strange that she wasn’t presenting the symptoms one would normally associate with the above colic, which is why she wasn’t sent to the Equine hospital sooner! Which just proves not all horses show the classic colic symptoms like; rolling, pawing, kicking the ground, biting at stomach, sweating, with a rapid pulse & heavy breathing. The vet also explained that whilst Lillia was under anaesthetic, she also had problems with her heart, but the vets manage to stabilize her & carry on with the operation. I was mortified to think my horse was going through all this, without me being there to help, due to my own pain; thank God, she had my daughter’s voice, to reassure & calm her!!

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After a week she was allowed home, still with the bandaging , stitches & staples. in place, she didn’t have to return to the hospital, as they could be taken out by any vet. From photo’s my daughter took, I couldn’t believe how quickly she had lost condition, from her withers to her backside; she looked very dehydrated. Lillia was ok for a few days, but unfortunately the colic symptoms returned, so she was rushed back into hospital. This carried on from the 23rd June to 16th July, in & out of hospital with colic symptoms. On the 16th July, she was allowed to come home once again; the yard staff had even made her a welcome home banner, thinking this would be the end of it all!

The day after she came home from her latest visit to the Equine hospital; I can’t describe why, or even begin to understand why, I had this overwhelming feeling that I just had to see her that day. This nagging, gut wrenching urge, just wouldn’t leave the pit of my stomach. Something told me that I had to be with Lillia that day. Although I was still recovering & was due in hospital the next day, I simply couldn’t ignore the feeling. I couldn’t go alone so my mum took me! I couldn’t get to see & be with Lillia fast enough, I was aching to wrap my arms around her, to tell her much I missed & loved her & how sorry I was at not being able to be with her throughout her ordeal.

Finally, we arrived at the stables (the livery yard is in another town, which meant visiting her, a problem due to my pain; my own fault, I wanted the best place where she would be loved , not just another livery number) & I soon had her in my arms! But all I could do was cry with relief, that she was ok & home again! But within 5 minutes, she began pawing the air, at first I thought it was because she was pleased to see me, & wanted a treat (she would often lift her front leg, her sign for treats) but then reality hit home; OMG…she was colicing yet again!!. Immediately the staff began walking her around whilst I rang the vet; it worried me that the staff had never seen her this bad! She was stomping, pawing, sweating & biting at her stomach. The vet reiterated how damaging it would be if she went down & began rolling, he said to give her more bute & keep her up & walking, until he arrived; the trailer was on standby, just in case!

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Lillia so desperately wanted to lay down, her back legs were buckling as she tried to walk, so the staff managed to get her into the sand school arena, so she didn’t injure her back legs. To see her being pulled & tugged at, to keep her up & moving was heart wrenching, but it had to be done. I’d done it years ago with a previous horse, but it’s not easy to keep a horse up; when all it wants to do is lay down! I sat on the bench, sobbing in my mother’s arms, watching my beautiful precious girl in such pain, was devastating to see; but harder because I wasn’t able to help! My tears wouldn’t stop & my heart was breaking. Suddenly, Lillia collapsed in the sand school & nobody could get her up; I just knew I had to be with her! So I left my mum, who was also in tears, to ring my daughter at work, to tell her she needed to get to the livery yard, ASAP.

Somehow, perhaps it was shock & adrenalin blocking my pain, I managed to get in the sand school, I just had to be with Lillia. I fell down to my knees at Lillias head, (all I could hear was my mum shouting frantically, along with the yard staff, to get up, as I wouldn’t have been able to move quick enough, had Lillia tried to get up or started rolling & kicking out in pain) but I knew once I looked into her eyes, she wasn’t going to do that! I just sat, with her head in my lap & told her how much I loved her & how brave she was. I told her that if my operation went well, we could soon be together again, perhaps even ride on the beach again & go hacking through the countryside etc; we just had so much to look forward to!

However, the longer I looked into her beautiful chocolate coloured eyes, I saw her soul & felt her pain; yet I couldn’t do anything to take it away, I just felt so bloody useless…I couldn’t hold back the tears! Stroking her face, I kept telling her how much I loved her & how sorry I was, that I couldn’t get to see her more often! Then suddenly she started to make strange grunting noises, like we would say “ugh” when in pain. I then realised why, the feeling in my gut; was telling me I had to be with her, that particular day!!

The vet arrived & after his examination, I could tell it wasn’t good, he immediately gave her pain killers & a little sedation via injection! My daughter arrived not long after the vet, which had given him time to explain the full situation to me. It left me with little doubt, the heartbreaking decision I had to make that day; if I wanted Lillias suffering to stop!!

R.I.P My special angel xx

R.I.P My special angel xx

There was no easy way to tell my daughter, that under the vets advice, I had decided to free Lillia of her pain! We both held each other; whilst sobbing & gently stroking Lillias face. The vet explained again to my daughter, what he had told me…Lillias cecum felt impacted again & could perforate. He ruled out further surgery, as she was still recovering from the first operation & there was a big risk of infection, plus the vet was also concerned with all the complications Lillia was having, post surgery. This time it could be a Cecal perforation (usually fatal)  masked through the use of drugs she was having daily (1). Moreover, there was the added concerns regarding Lillias heart problems, during surgery; the anaesthetic alone could kill her! 

However, because the vet had given Lillia IV pain relief as well as sedation, they had got her back on her feet, so she was just stood there showing little to no symptoms. My daughter pleaded with me to give Lillia another chance, but she hadn’t seen her 30 minutes before, groaning in pain. She asked the vet, if it was his horse, what would he do? He simply said “I would end it”!!

Lillia would never have recovered, if she had a Cecal Perforation; I just didn’t want her to suffer anymore, I had to make the right choice for her! I realised how many times I’d wished someone would have put me to sleep due to my chronic pain; I couldn’t let Lillia suffer. The only reason to keep Lillia alive, would be just for my own selfish reasons, because I needed her in my life & loved her so much… I didn’t want to let her go, especially as this was the first time I had seen in her months, due to my own ill-health; but I knew I had to let her go!

I had to do what was best for her, so I whispered in her ear, she didn’t have to suffer the severe pain anymore, there was a beautiful place waiting for her, just over Rainbow Bridge! Saying those words to the one you love so much is very hard indeed, I felt physically sick…but to let them go is even harder! If you truly love them, you have to let them go, I just couldn’t bear the thought of her suffering another minute, in severe pain. The vet held my arm, but I couldn’t say it, my sobbing stopped me talking…I just nodded; he knew what I meant!

We had to walk Lillia down to a field (she had to be somewhere with easy access for the trailer to get in) so the vet gave her more pain relief & sedative, then he told us to take our time, to say our goodbyes. I have to say the vet was very supportive & said he would do the same, if it were his horse. But it didn’t relieve my guilty feeling, at letting Lillia go, although it helped, knowing I was doing the right thing. My daughter had just bought Lilla, a brand new pink fluffy headcollar, that she had never worn, so we put it on her & she looked beautiful. Our hearts were breaking & our tears flowed, I have never felt so sad, broken-hearted & guilty in all my life!! Devastated, there we stood, with our arms around Lillia, our tears soaking her face. I told her she was ready to cross Rainbow Bridge, where there would be lots more horses & ponies to run & play with; I also asked her to forgive me & that one day we would be back together again, riding through the clouds!

After what seemed like hours, the vet came & told us he was going to give her another injection, that would make her fall to the ground & when we had finished our goodbyes, he would peacefully put her to sleep via another injection. Before he did, I asked if we could have one last picture taken with her! The vet gave her the injection & she immediately fell into the grass. We then spent ages laying in the grass with Lillia, she just laid there looking so peaceful; she didn’t move apart from blinking, her nostrils rising & falling with each breath. We took our time plaiting her main & talked about all the fun things we had done, we both had our own special, precious & fun memories with her!

, Just before Lillia went over Rainbow Bridge!

Saying our last goodbye’s….Just before Lillia went over Rainbow Bridge!

The vet waited with patience & sympathy until we were ready. Whilst holding Lillias head & each other, we sobbed uncontrollably, under the setting sun. It had to be done, so I nodded to the vet, who then gave Lillia the final injection, & her heart stopped. She peacefully passed away in our arms…then crossed over Rainbow Bridge! I didn’t realise just how many tears were left, we cut off the plaits of her hair to remember her by & put them in the lockets we both owned, so she would always be near our hearts forever! Then we had to say our final, heartbreaking goodbyes, leaving her alone in the field just didn’t feel right; but we had to leave. I wished we’d owned some private land. so that Lillia could have been buried, that way we could always visit; but we didn’t, so had to walk away. It was overwhelming & so emotional, all the horses that Lillia had shared the fields with, started to whinny, as if they too were saying goodbye!!

It was the ending I had always dreamt of, yet never had, with any of my other horses, when having to say goodbye! This, though so very hard, was the perfect ending; I only wish all horses could have such a beautiful & peaceful end! The last thing Lillia saw, was our faces, our voices, the last she heard! The sun was just about to go down, yet it still shone around Lillia, making her look like she was surrounded by a golden halo! Through the warm rays of the sunshine, we looked back; it was very emotional yet strangely so calm, beautiful & serene! Lillias coat glistened in the hazy sun; she just looked like she was peacefully sleeping. As we walked away, my daughter took the amazing picture below. It was a day tarnished with such heartache, sadness & raw emotion; yet also the most beautiful…Lillias image, surrounded by a golden light, will stay in my heart, always & forever. 

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Under this beautiful sunset, Lillia passed over Rainbow Bridge…pain free at last! xx God only knows, why I’d had such a gut feeling that day & also  found the strength to be with Lillia. But whatever or whomever pleaded with my heart, to see Lillia that day, I’m eternally grateful for! I was exactly where I wanted to be…where I could be with my precious girl; on the day I had to sadly say goodbye!!

As I write this, my tears fall, but I will be back asap, I just can’t say when! I have a big spinal operation due soon, which will obviously set me back even more; there is a risk of paralyses amongst other complications, so I’ve had to think long & hard about this operation. My main reason for going ahead with it, was so that I could be with Lillia, perhaps even ride again!! However, despite the risks, I have still decided to go ahead with it. I’m devastated that Lillia has gone; but in time, I will buy or rescue another horse, so I need to be as pain-free as possible! I’m sure Lillia would have wanted me to give my love to another horse; however, nothing can or will ever replace my precious girl.

I just hope you understand the reasons for the lack of posts & can stick with me throughout this very difficult & emotional period. Losing Lilla has really knocked me off my feet & I have to admit, I have gone into a bit of a melt down! I just have to get over my broken heart & find the strength from within, to face what I’m praying; will be my last spinal operation!! It won’t give me a miraculous recovery & take all my pain away; but if all goes well, it will hopefully give me a better quality of life!

It’s taken me so many days to write the above, bit by bit, & has made me so very sad, yet I couldn’t have wished for a more perfect end for Lillia! I’ve cried a lot; but ultimately, I think writing this has helped me come to terms with my loss. Lillia was no ordinary horse, she saved me from chronic depression; she made me feel alive again, she was just such a special horse, whom I miss so very much! It’s going to take time, but one day I will find another special horse, or God Willing,  it will find me, to share my love & life with, just as Lillia had done!!

The following poem, is, I believe the words Lillia would say to me, if only she could, as I sit here in such an emotional wreck:-

Miss you from heaven

Miss you from heaven

Obviously, I’ve been away quite some time now, due to my health & the sad loss of Lillia. So I don’t blame anyone who has lost interest in my blog due to the lack of posts. But it would be great, to know I still have some followers left, to write news blogs for!! I really can’t tell you & you will never know, just how much your support has helped me deal with my life over the years…I’d like to thank each & every one of you who have subscribed & supported this blog!!

You have given me a reason, to battle on through my pain, most importantly, to help me to spread the global atrocities & raise awareness to the abuse, animals face daily at the hands of humans. Be it through slaughter for human consumption or entertainment. The public has to open its eyes to the suffering of innocent animals & act accordingly. Please don’t visit zoos or circuses, doing so only adds to their daily abuse & heartache. Please, don’t become part of their suffering by visiting animal attractions like Seaworld! The owners want you to be in awe of the beautiful Orcas & Dolphin displays & you’re encouraged to think they live a glamorous lifestyle, with the best of everything. The sheer size of a captive Orc, in relation to the pool it is kept in, is ridiculous & cruel, it’s the equivalent to a person, being locked in solitary confinement in a 10x10ft room!!!!  They want you to believe it is all done in the best interest of their species & of course for conservation etc. The handful that do so for conservation, don’t expect their  animals to entertain the public.

YOU… need to be made aware of the true suffering involved; for your entertainment. I aim to share the truth & mental suffering these amazing animals have to go through, to entertain the paying public…this goes for every caged animal, forced to entertain for profit! Seriously, you must understand why some captive animals just snap: which usually ends with the life of a human & the animal involved being killed! They never asked to be involved…they were forced. Seriously, have you ever seen an elephant stand on its head in the wild? or tigers & lions jumping through hoops of fire?? It’s not natural to them, they are forced, often in barbaric ways…just to entertain you & are purely motivated by money alone!!

Remember, the only thing that will love you more than yourself, is an animal; pure & simple unconditional love, asking so little in return!

I promise I’ll  be back just as soon as I can & I hope I can count on your help & support by sharing my stories, news & signing petitions regards animals abuse! The free speaking public, need to learn the truth about the abuse animals suffer. Regards the exotic species, torn from their families as youngsters, then cruelly abused & repeatedly trained through abuse & violence, how to entertain those on vacation; such as dancing bears, photos with young elephants on busy streets, monkeys. birds & sea life…that are brutally forced to entertain for money…PERIOD!!! If those who go to venues involving animals, they need to learn the truth & the signs to look for. The swaying elephants, the pacing tigers, bears, repetitive animal behavior etc, they act that way due to psychosis, they are literally going stir crazy…wouldn’t you? if you were taken from your family, caged beaten into submission; then trained to entertain??? If  your answer is no, then  sadly I think you’re reading the wrong blog!!!

Footnote

  1.  Cecal impaction and cecal perforation, the two most common equine cecal diseases, are thought to develop after slowing or interruption of a single progressive motility pattern, which begins in a pacemaker area near the apex, occurs once every 3 minutes, and propels ingesta from the cecum to the right ventral colon. Rectal examination in horses with cecal impaction is the most useful technique to grade the severity of the condition. Medical treatment is undertaken if the impaction is judged to be mild to moderate. Surgical correction of cecal impaction in severe cases requires a ventral midline celiotomy, and exploration reveals a large ingesta-filled cecum and relatively empty large colon.Cecal perforation (CP), a uniformly fatal disease of horses, most often develops when the subtle signs of cecal impaction are missed or are masked by the administration of nonsteroidal antiinflammatory agents. 

 

 

 

A PERSONAL MESSAGE ABOUT JULIE

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TO THOSE WHO FOLLOW THIS BLOG, MY APOLOGIES FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO WRITE THIS SOONER, BUT I HAVE NEVER USED THIS PROGRAM BEFORE (my granddaughter would normally write if needed, but she was on vacation) SO I HAVE HAD TO LEARN HOW TO USE WORDPRESS. 

I AM WRITING ON BEHALF OF MY DAUGHTER JULIE, TO INFORM HER FRIENDS AND FOLLOWERS, THAT SHE IS NOT WELL, WHICH IS WHY JULIE HAS NOT WRITTEN ANYTHING IN A WHILE, AND SHE WILL BE AWAY FOR SOME TIME YET!.

UNFORTUNATELY, JULIE SUFFERED SOME COMPLICATIONS DUE TO A RECENT SURGICAL PROCEDURE, WHICH MEANS SHE IS UNABLE TO GET TO HER PC, HER MOVEMENTS ARE RESTRICTED; SHE CAN’T EVEN USE HER WHEELCHAIR!

JULIE WAS BACK IN HOSPITAL ON THE 2ND OF JULY (for more spinal procedures) BUT THE PROCEDURE DIDN’T WORK!!  MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH HEALTH WISE, FOR SO LONG; I DIDN’T THINK THINGS COULD GET ANY WORSE…HOW WRONG COULD I BE! BUT NOBODY COULD HAVE FORESEEN WHAT WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN… AT THE WORST POSSIBLE TIME FOR JULIE…I’M SURE JULIE WON’T MIND ME SHARING HER STORY, JUST SO YOU UNDERSTAND THE CIRCUMSTANCES ETC.

JULIES RIDING ACCIDENT IN THE 80’S (caused by drunken youths letting air horns off in her horses face; causing her to fall and be trampled) LEFT HER DISABLED, MEANING JULIE HAS HAD SEVERAL SPINAL SURGERIES AND PROCEDURES OVER THE YEARS; SEVERAL WITH COMPLICATIONS. YET WE HAVE TO REMAIN POSITIVE AS JULIE FACES MORE SURGERY TO TRY AND IMPROVE HER QUALITY OF LIFE.

JULIES ACCIDENT MEANT SHE HAD TO WITHDRAW FROM PHYSICALLY HELPING ANIMALS IN NEED AND HAD TO LET HER BELOVED HORSES BE CARED FOR BY FRIENDS, WHO EVENTUALLY BOUGHT THEM AS JULIE COULD NOT CARE FOR THEM. THIS OBVIOUSLY HAD AN ADVERSE EFFECT ON HER PERSONALITY AND ALSO CAUSED HER TO SUFFER FROM SEVERE DEPRESSION. JULIE ALWAYS PREFERRED THE COMPANY OF ANIMALS TO HUMANS, SO AFTER SUFFERING MANY YEARS OF DEPRESSION; JULIE KNEW THERE WAS ONLY ONE WAY TO DEAL WITH HER SITUATION.

WITH THE AID OF HER EQUINE PALS, JULIE SET ABOUT LOOKING FOR THE ONLY THING IN HER LIFE THAT WOULD HELP HER TO COPE AND GIVE HER A REASON TO CARRY ON…ANDIMG_2272 THAT WAS TO BUY ANOTHER HORSE. SHE DIDN’T TELL THE FAMILY, AS SHE KNEW WE WOULD NOT BE HAPPY WITH HER DECISION. HOWEVER, EVEN THOUGH THE SURGEONS HAD TOLD JULIE, ANOTHER FALL COULD PARALYSE HER FOR LIFE, IT DIDN’T STOP HER!

DESPITE THE FAMILY TELLING JULIE IT WAS A STUPID IDEA TO BUY ANOTHER HORSE; SHE WENT AGAINST ALL CAUTION AND WARNINGS. AT THE TIME WE THOUGHT SHE WAS CRAZY AND IRRESPONSIBLE FOR EVEN THINKING ABOUT BUYING ANOTHER HORSE! BUT, AS IT TURNED OUT, IT WAS TO BE THE BEST THING SHE COULD EVER HAVE DONE; TO HELP HER OVERCOME HER DEPRESSION.

WITH HELP FROM HER FRIENDS, JULIE WENT TO A DISABLED RIDING SCHOOL TO LEARN HOW TO RIDE AGAIN. SHE HAD VERY LITTLE LEG, BACK, AND UPPER BODY STRENGTH, DUE TO BEING IN HER WHEELCHAIR. BUT DESPITE THE PAIN JULIE ENDURED, SHE DID LEARN HOW TO RIDE AGAIN (IN A FASHION) SO 2009 SHE BOUGHT HER FIRST HORSE SINCE HER ACCIDENT; A BEAUTIFUL 16.3Hh CHESTNUT GELDERLAND MARE WHOM SHE LEARNT HOW TO RIDE ON. ALTHOUGH JULIE COULDN’T DO MUCH RIDING, JUST BEING AROUND HER HORSE WAS ENOUGH TO PULL HER OUT OF HER DEPRESSION. SHE HAD TO RELY ON FRIENDS TO HELP OUT AND HAD TO PAY THE HIGH LIVERY COSTS, NOT BEING ABLE TO BE WITH HER HORSE EVERY DAY, JULIE WANTED THE BEST AND BE CERTAIN HER NEW HORSE WOULD BE LOVED AND WELL CARED FOR. THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS THAT THE LIVERY YARD WAS SOME DISTANCE FROM JULIES HOME, WHICH MEANT SHE COULDN’T VISIT EVERY DAY; ESPECIALLY WHEN HER PAIN WAS BAD.

GRADUALLY, WE ALL SAW THAT JULIE WAS BECOMING HER OLD SELF AGAIN, ALBEIT IN PAIN, I REALISED JUST HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO JULIE TO HAVE ANOTHER HORSE (as well as her dogs). THERE WAS NO AMOUNT OF MONEY OR DRUGS IN THE WORLD THAT COULD HAVE TAKEN JULIES DEPRESSION AWAY! JUST SEEING THE PLEASURE SHE GAINED FROM BEING WITH HER HORSE, EVEN IF ALL SHE COULD DO WAS SIT IN THE STABLE DUE TO PAIN; TO SEE MY DAUGHTER LAUGHING AGAIN, BROUGHT TEARS OF JOY TO MY EYES!!

JULIE EVEN MANAGED TO SAVE A LITTLE COLT FROM THE HORSE SALES, WHO WOULD HAVE PROBABLY ENDED UP ON SOMEONE’S PLATE. JULIE BROUGHT THAT LITTLE COLT ON, THEN GAVE IT TO HER FRIENDS LITTLE GIRL. SHE WANTED THE COLT AND CHILD TO GROW UP TOGETHER, JUST AS SHE HAD DONE IN HER EARLY LIFE!  JULIE KNEW THE COLT WOULD BE CARED FOR AND LOVED FOR LIFE. BUT MORE SO SHE WANTED THE CHILD TO GROW UP WITH THE COLT; MAKING A BOND THAT WOULD NEVER END!

HOWEVER JULIE WASN’T STUPID OR NAIVE….SHE KNEW SHE WOULD ONLY BE ABLE TO RIDE FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME, BEFORE SHE HAD TO STOP DUE TO HER FRAGILE SPINE. JULIE HAD 3 BEAUTIFUL YEARS BEING WITH HER HORSE, BUT SADLY HER VISITS GOT LESS AND LESS DUE TO JULIES PAIN; WHICH IS WHEN HER DAUGHTER TOOK OVER CARING FOR HER. ALTHOUGH JULIE COULD NO LONGER RIDE OR SEE HER HORSE, JUST KNOWING SHE HAD HER IN HER LIFE, GAVE HER SOMETHING TO FIGHT FOR AND STAY FOCUSED ON; WHEN ENDURING HER DEBILITATING PAIN AND TREATMENT!

THE ONE THING THAT JULIE HAD YET TO FIND WAS SOME WAY OF HELPING THE VOICELESS, ASIDE FROM BEING A MEMBER OF MOST ANIMAL CHARITIES AND  DONATING ETC. JULIE WANTED TO DO MORE…WHICH IS WHEN WORDPRESS CAME TO HER RESCUE. PREVIOUSLY SHE SPENT A LOT OF TIME ON CARE2, SHARING STORIES AND HEADING UP PETITIONS ETC, SHE THOUGHT SHE WOULD NEVER BE IN A POSITION TO HELP ANIMALS AGAIN, ESPECIALLY FROM BEHIND A COMPUTER WHERE I MIGHT ADD SHE HAS FOUND SOME WONDERFUL FRIENDS!IMG_1129

I AM SO VERY PROUD OF JULIES ACCOMPLISHMENTS, DESPITE HER PAIN. IT’S VERY FRUSTRATING FOR JULIE WHEN SHE CAN’T GET TO HER COMPUTER AND WRITE ABOUT ANIMAL ABUSE, WHICH AS ONE CAN IMAGINE; LEAVES JULIE REALLY STRESSED AND FEELING USELESS, JUST AS SHE DOES NOW!!!

JULIE WAS ALREADY UNABLE TO USE WORDPRESS DUE TO RECENT SURGICAL COMPLICATIONS…THE LAST THING SHE NEEDED, KNOWING SHE WAS DUE TO GO BACK INTO HOSPITAL; WAS TO HEAR HER HORSE, LILLIA, WHO WAS HER LIFE SAVER; WAS VERY ILL.

THE LIVERY YARD OWNERS HAD ALREADY CALLED A VET OUT, WHO DID ALL HE COULD VIA TUBING ETC. BUT ULTIMATELY JULIES HORSE, LILLIA, NEEDED EMERGENCY SURGERY. WE CAN ONLY THANK GOD THAT THE YARD OWNERS HAD A TRAILER READY, WAITING TO TAKE LILLIA TO SURGERY!

BASED ON THE THE HORSES RECTAL EXAM AND RISK OF CAECAL RUPTURE, JULIE WAS ADVISED TO CONSENT TO SURGERY IMMEDIATELY. OBVIOUSLY SHE WAS DEVASTATED, SHE WAS ABOUT TO GO BACK INTO HOSPITAL HERSELF…NOBODY COULD CONSOLE HER.

BASICALLY LILLIA WAS SUFFERING FROM A RIGHT DORSAL DISPLACEMENT OF THE LARGE COLON, ALONG WITH AN ENLARGED CAECUM FULL OF GAS AND INGESTA. FOR THOSE WHO KNOW LITTLE ABOUT COLIC ILLNESSES, LILLA HAD COMPLICATIONS WHICH IF NOT TREATED WITH SURGERY;WOULD HAVE MEANT THE END!

JULIE WAS DEVASTATED; SHE COULDN’T POSSIBLY GET TO LILLIA DUE TO HER OWN PHYSICAL PROBLEMS; SO SAT UNCONTROLLABLY SOBBING BY THE PHONE. EVENTUALLY AFTER 4 HOURS IN SURGERY, JULIE GOT A CALL AT 2.AM, THE VETS HAD DONE ALL THEY COULD AND IT WAS UP TO LILLIA TO HAVE THE WILL TO PULL THROUGH.

I SIMPLY CAN’T PUT INTO WORDS JULIES REACTION, KNOWING SHE COULDN’T BE THERE AND ABOUT TO GO BACK INTO HOSPITAL HERSELF, LEFT HER FEELING UTTERLY USELESS. NOTHING AND NOBODY COULD CONSOLE JULIE, WHO FELT SO GUILTY NOT BEING ABLE TO BE WITH HER HORSE..THE FIRST 24 HOURS AFTER SURGERY WOULD BE CRITICAL, ONLY THEN WOULD WE KNOW IF SHE WOULD PULL THROUGH!!

WHAT I KNOW BEING JULIE’S MOTHER, IS THAT MY DAUGHTER IS A FIGHTER, WITH THE TENACITY AND BARK OF A TERRIER TO MATCH! SO WHEN SHE IS OUT OF HOSPITAL HERSELF, AND ABLE TO MOVE WITHOUT CAUSING FURTHER PROBLEMS, SHE WILL BE BACK ASAP, TO CARRY ON HER LIFELONG LOVE AND PASSION; BEING A VOICE FOR ALL ANIMALS AND EXPOSING THE WORLDWIDE SYSTEMATIC ABUSE THEY SUFFER AT THE HANDS OF MANKIND; HAS HELPED JULIE AND MADE HER SEE THAT SHE IS NOT USELESS.

LILLIA AFTER SURGERY

LILLIA AFTER SURGERY

SO I ASK ALL THOSE THAT SUPPORT JULIES BLOG, THAT YOU PLEASE KEEP THEM BOTH IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS; ESPECIALLY JULIE, SHE IS DEVASTATED AS SHE WON’T GET TO BE WITH HER HORSE FOR SOME TIME!!

I KNOW NOW WHY JULIES BLOG IS SO IMPORTANT TO HER TOO! SHE FINALLY HAS SOMETHING IN HER LIFE THAT MAKES HER FEEL LIKE SHE IS ACTUALLY HELPING ANIMALS; IT ALSO HELPS TO TAKE HER MIND OFF OTHER THINGS LIKE PAIN AND NOT BEING ABLE TO BE WITH HER OWN HORSE. AS LONG AS SHE HAS HER HORSE AND WORDPRESS IN HER LIFE; SHE HAS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

BY EDUCATING AND RAISING AWARENESS, JULIE HAS FOUND ANOTHER WAY TO LET THE PUBLIC KNOW ABOUT THE ATROCITIES AND ABUSE INFLICTED ON ANIMALS AROUND THE GLOBE! BE IT FOR ENTERTAINMENT OR ANIMALS RAISED FOR FOOD.

THE PUBLIC MUST BE MADE AWARE, AND HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW HOW THE ANIMALS BORN FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION, ARE TREATED BEFORE SLAUGHTER!

ONLY THEN CAN THE PUBLIC HELP TO AVOID MAKING THE WRONG CHOICES!  WHETHER IT BE FOOD OR VISITING A CIRCUS ETC.; THE PUBLIC MUST KNOW THAT THEY ARE INADVERTENTLY ADDING TO THE ANIMALS SUFFERING BY VISITING PLACES WHERE ANIMALS SHOULD NOT BE, LIKE SEA WORLD IN ORLANDO!!.

BY READING JULIE’S BLOG, I FOR ONE, HAVE LEARNT SO MUCH ABOUT THE DESPICABLE WAYS ANIMALS ARE TREATED AROUND THE WORLD; HORRIFIC SUFFERING THAT I COULD NEVER HAVE IMAGINED IF NOT SEEN FOR MYSELF….IT’S HARD TO FORGET IMAGES OF ANIMALS WHO HAVE PURPOSELY BEEN ABUSED! JULIE IS NOT THICK SKINNED, BY ANY MEANS, SHE CRIES A LOT FOR THOSE THAT SUFFER. BUT THEN SHE GETS MAD AMD THAT ANGER HELPS HER BE STRONG ENOUGH TO POST STORIES THAT SICKEN MOST!

CREATING THIS BLOG, HAS GIVEN JULIE A WAY TO HELP ANIMALS , ALBEIT FROM BEHIND A COMPUTER, IT IS ANOTHER REASON FOR HER TO CARRY ON AND NOT GIVE UP.

SO PLEASE, BE PATIENT, I CAN ASSURE YOU SHE IS CHOMPING AT THE BIT (pardon the pun) AND CAN’T WAIT TO BE BACK ON WORDPRESS, SPREADING THE EVIL WAYS, MANKIND TREATS ANIMALS.

AS FOR JULIES HORSE, SHE IS DOING AS WELL AS CAN BE EXPECTED, SHE WAS RELEASED A WEEK AFTER SURGERY….IT TOOK ONLY A FEW DAYS BEFORE SHE WAS READMITTED DUE TO COLIC PROBLEMS, WHICH IS WHERE SHE REMAINS FOR THE TIME BEING!

JULIE IS HOME AT THE MOMENT BUT STILL TOO ILL TO GET AROUND. SHE IS BACK IN HOSPITAL ON THE 18TH JULY. SHE STILL FACES SOME MAJOR SURGERY, WE JUST DON’T KNOW WHEN IT WILL BE; CONSIDERING ALL THE COMPLICATIONS SHE HAS HAD IN THE PAST.

HOWEVER, JULIE IS BRAVE ENOUGH TO ENDURE ANY TREATMENT THAT MAY ULTIMATELY HELP GIVE HER BACK SOME QUALITY OF LIFE, SO SHE CAN AT LEAST GET OUT TO SEE HER OWN HORSE AND CARRY ON THIS VERY INFORMATIVE BLOG!

ALL I CAN SAY IS SHE WILL BE BACK HERE ASAP.  THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO FOLLOW JULIE’S BLOG; YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOUR INPUT MEANS TO HER, IT HELPS HER DEAL WITH EVERYDAY LIFE!

I WILL CONTINUE TO UPDATE YOU ON JULIE AND HER HORSE, IF SHE CAN’T DO SO HERSELF…. SHE JUST DOESN’T WANT ANYONE THINKING SHE IS SLACKING OR CAN’T BE BOTHERED TO WRITE ANY POSTS!.

REGARDS

JULIES MUM

 

 

 

GRAPHIC VIDEO: New undercover investigation reveals cruelty inside rabbit farms linked to the UK. PETITION

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“The condition these poor rabbits have to endure before slaughter is heartbreaking & just sickening! No animal should suffer disease, pain, infection & total a lack of care; when the ultimate end is for human enjoyment!. This despicable industry must be stopped, please help by signing the petition & spreading it far & wide, thanks!”

PLEASE SIGN THE PETITION HERE OR AT THE LINK BELOW; THIS SUFFERING MUST BE STOPPED:-http://www.animalequality.net/news/623/new-undercover-investigation-reveals-cruelty-inside-rabbit-farms-linked-uk

For over 2 years, Animal Equality investigators have infiltrated the rabbit meat industry in Spain. Two of the farms investigated are directly linked with restaurants in the UK.

Today, Animal Equality has been featured in The Sunday Times where it reveals the shocking findings of its latest investigation. Two of the farms investigated are linked to and English distributor, and restaurants such as the Terrace at the National Theatre in London.

For over a period of 2 years, Animal Equality investigators infiltrated the Spanish rabbit meat industry. A total of 72 farms, and 4 slaughterhouses have been investigated.

Findings of this investigation:

• Animals killed by blunt force trauma. Furthermore, our investigators have been able to report that this is a common practice within rabbit industry.

• Workers throwing live rabbits into the waste containers, due to over-production.

• Animals with open wounds or infections were left in the cages and had no veterinary treatment.

• Cannibalism amongst certain animals provoked by over-crowded conditions.

• Farms selling rabbits to restaurants without them first meeting health and safety requirements.

• A vet smashing a rabbit against the ground whilst acknowledging, to the camera, that this constitutes animal abuse.

• Farms which had never received health and bio-security inspections

• Dead animals left to rot in cages next to live animals.

WARNING: THE VIDEO YOU ARE ABOUT TO SEE CONTAINS GRAPHIC FOOTAGE.

 Published on 25 May 2014

Help animals now! Take action at http://Rabbit-Farms.org 

For over 2 years, Animal Equality investigators have infiltrated the rabbit meat industry in Spain. Two of the farms investigated are directly linked with restaurants in the UK.

Support now our work for the defence of animals athttp://AnimalEquality.net/donation

Animal Equality has already taken legal action against the farms and slaughterhouses investigated. Administrative sanctions on those responsible, may vary from 60,001 to 1,200,000 euros in the case of very serious offences, and fines from 600 to 3,000 euros for minor offences.

Findings of this investigation:

• Animals killed by blunt force trauma. Furthermore, our investigators have been able to report that this is a common practice within rabbit industry.

• Workers throwing live rabbits into the waste containers, due to over-production.

• Animals with open wounds or infections were left in the cages and had no veterinary treatment.

• Cannibalism amongst certain animals due to over-crowded conditions.

• Farms selling rabbits to restaurants without them first meeting health and safety requirements.

• A vet smashing a rabbit against the ground whilst acknowledging, to the camera, that it was animal abuse.

• Farms which had never received health and bio-security inspections

• Dead animals left to rot in cages next to live animals.

Animal Equality has already taken legal action against the farms and slaughterhouses investigated. Administrative sanctions on those responsible, may vary from 60,001 to 1,200,000 euros in the case of very serious offences and fines from 600 to 3,000 euros for minor offences.

News Link & Petition:- http://www.animalequality.net/news/623/new-undercover-investigation-reveals-cruelty-inside-rabbit-farms-linked-uk

 “Thanks to my daughter for writing this…not been well…sorry for lack of posts but will be back ASAP XXX”

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Animal Aid: TWO HORSES DIE AT PLUMPTON’S SUNDAY RACES

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“All horses love to run, my horse loves to gallop (without any coaxing, i.e. kicked, whipped) on the beach; then she stops when she has had enough! But there is a big difference between letting them run freely & forcing them to carry on galloping, when they have given their all, by whipping etc. This just totally pxxxxs’s me off! Why? Because it’s all down to money!”

Two horses, both aged six-years-old, lost their lives at Plumpton Racecourse yesterday afternoon (Sunday 11 May).

In the first race of the day, Head Rush was pulled up injured, halfway through the two-mile hurdle race in which he was competing. Then, in the final event of the day, a National Hunt flat race, grey gelding Eastbury fell to the ground injured and was seen struggling to get up.

Horse deaths at Plumpton are not rare. Two other horses, Ironically and Business Mover, were killed in almost identical circumstances to yesterday’s victims on the same race day in May 2013. And a total of 29 horses have perished at the East Sussex course since March 2007.

Animal Aid says that urgent action is required by both the racecourse and the British Horseracing Authority to prevent further horse deaths.

For further information

  • For press enquiries, please call Andrew Tyler or Dene Stansall on 01732 364546.

Visit Race Horse Death Watch for full listings of on-course deaths.

Posted 13 May 2014: News Link:-http://www.animalaid.org.uk/h/n/NEWS/news_horse/ALL/3099//

 

 

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Animals Have Friends And Those Friends Have Votes!

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“I know who I will be voting for; as a voice for animals!”

The European Elections take place on Thursday 22nd May. Since many laws relating to animals – including at slaughter and in vivisection laboratories – are generated in Europe, Animal Aid is asking you to do two things: 1) vote, and 2) think of the animals as you do so.

Animal Aid wrote to the key political parties standing at these elections to ask for their animal protection policies, and we also put to them five questions relating to animal issues affected by European laws. The Green Party, Animal Welfare Party, Labour Party, Liberal Democrats and Plaid Cymru all responded in the required timeframe.

The Conservatives, UKIP, the SNP, Sinn Fein, UUP and the Democratic Unionists did not respond at all.

The Green Party supports an end to live export from the UK; mandatory CCTV for all slaughterhouses; ‘absolutely’ opposes cages for egg-laying hens, farrowing crates for pigs and zero grazing of farmed animals; is committed to ending animal experimentation and investing in non-animal replacements; and does not support the use of animals in circuses, horse racing, dog racing or sport shooting. Green Party candidates are standing in every region.

The Animal Welfare Party is a new political party focused squarely on being a voice for animals in Europe. It opposes live transportation of animals; supports mandatory CCTV in slaughterhouses; opposes cages for hens, farrowing crates for pigs and zero grazing; supports a phase-out of all animal use in laboratories; and opposes all use of animals in sport and entertainment. The Animal Welfare Party is standing in London only.

Read the full responses made by these two parties, as well as Labour, the Liberal Democrats and Plaid Cymru.

Thank you for making your vote count for animals.

Please ask your friends to vote for the animals too!

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POLICE: Port St. Lucie Man Beats Dog With Sawed-Off Shotgun, Holds Its Head Under Water In Tub

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“What a moron, he needs to locked up for a very long time!”

PORT ST. LUCIE, Fla. — A 24-year-old man was arrested after severely beating his dog with a sawed-off shotgun and holding his head under water in a bathtub, then turning the gun on his girlfriend who was trying to get him to stop, police say.

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Port St. Lucie police responded at noon Wednesday to 304 SE Walton Lakes Drive on a domestic disturbance report. They were met by a crying woman who said her boyfriend, Kyle Romain Hall, got mad at his dog for tearing things up in the apartment and pooping on the floor.

She said he yelled at the dog and hit him, which made the dog cry and howl, according to a police report. She said the more the dog cried, the more severely Hall attacked him. She said Hall tied the dog to a bathtub faucet and began hitting it in the head with a sawed-off shotgun. The dog’s howling continued, so Hall turned on the faucet and held the dog’s head under the water.

The woman said she began screaming at Hall to stop hurting the dog and her turned his attention to her, confronting her at first with a kitchen knife and then the sawed-off shotgun. She fled the apartment and called 9-1-1.

When police arrived, Hall denied all her allegations.

Police found the sawed-off shotgun behind a television in the living room.

The dog, named Scrappy, was barely conscious with swelling and severe cuts to his head. Police say Scrappy was dazed and unresponsive. Scrappy was taken to Animal Kindness Hospital for treatment.

Hall was arrested and jailed on charges of aggravated assault, possession of a short-barreled shotgun and animal cruelty.

Police seized the shotgun and a .22-caliber revolver in the home.

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GRAPHIC VIDEO: MFA Undercover – Confined, Chained And Abused, Canadian Veal Industry Exposed. Petition To Sign

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“I can’t deny shedding tears for these little ones, chained up in tiny boxes, they can’t even turn around in; before their short lives end at the slaughter plant! These sentient beings may be, just a by product, but they still deserve to be treated with kindness & respect…it doesn’t cost anything to show empathy etc. Animals are far more humane than humans are & always will be!

“As with all animals, especially those that are raised for human consumption; at the very least, surely they deserve to have the 5 Freedom acts adhered to. The five freedoms that no animal kept by humans for whatever reason; should ever be without, it’s not much to ask for, is it?

  1. freedom from hunger and thirst
  2. freedom from discomfort (shelter from heat and rain)
  3. freedom from pain, injury and disease
  4. freedom to express normal behaviour (without inconveniencing or harming others)
  5.  freedom from fear and distress.

Please sign petition: http://www.cratedcruelty.ca/

NONE OF THE ABOVE FREEDOM ACTS APPLY TO THESE CALVES; NOR DO THEY FOR OTHER FARM ANIMALS RAISED FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION. THE  CONDITIONS THEY ARE FORCED TO LIVE IN, ARE QUITE FRANKLY HORRIFIC, DESPICABLE & APPALLINGLY CRUEL…THIS IS 2014! CRATED CRUELTY….SIMPLY TORTURE CHAMBERS FOR BABIES; WHICH SHOULD HAVE BEEN LEFT IN THE DARK AGES….PLEASE SIGN THE PETITION & SHARE WITH ALL…WE MUST JOIN TOGETHER & RAISE OUR VOICES; WE MUST HELP CHANGE THE WAY FARM ANIMALS  ARE KEPT & SLAUGHTERED!!

EXPOSED, CANADIAN VEAL INDUSTRY

Please sign petition: http://www.cratedcruelty.ca/

From December to February 2014, a Mercy For Animals Canada investigator worked at a Délimax veal factory farm in Pont-Rouge, Quebec. Our hidden camera captured horrific animal cruelty and neglect, including:

  • Calves crammed into feces-covered wooden boxes barely larger than their own bodies
  • Baby animals chained by the neck, unable to even turn around or lie down comfortably for their entire lives
  • Animals driven mad from boredom and stress, denied even their most basic natural behaviours
  • Workers violently kicking, punching, and tormenting baby animals
  • Animals painfully stuck in the wooden slats of their crates
  • Sick and injured animals left to suffer and slowly die in their own filth without proper veterinary care

EXPERT OPINIONS

After reviewing the undercover footage, Dr. John Webster, Professor of Animal Husbandry at the University of Bristol, and Europe’s leading expert on dairy cattle welfare, stated: “In all my experience, this is the worst, cruellest system that I have ever seen, in every sense, housing, health and stockmanship. [T]he system as seen on the video is now illegal in Europe, both in regard to individual housing, and denial of access to solid feed containing sufficient digestible fibre.”

Dr. Sara Shields agreed, concluding: “Veal crates are the epitome of a poor animal housing system, and it is almost shocking to see them still being used… Studies have shown that calves tethered in stalls have higher physiological stress responses than those kept in groups or in pairs.”

DITCH VEAL, DITCH DAIRY

Veal is a direct by-product of the dairy industry. Since they will never produce milk, male calves born into the dairy industry are ripped away from their mothers’ sides shortly after birth and end up in veal factory farms like this one.

These calves spend their short, wretched lives languishing in their own waste inside a tiny wooden box. They never get to see the sun, breathe fresh air, feel the grass beneath their feet, walk, run, play, or do anything that makes life worth living. Their short lives are filled with misery, violence, and deprivation.

Although cruelty and violence are standard practice for Canada’s veal industry, caring consumers can help end the needless suffering of calves and other farmed animals by choosing a compassionate vegan diet.

“If you cant go fully vegan then help by trying to be a vegetarian & don’t drink milk (It’s made for animals offspring, not humans) drink soya milk instead. I drink Soya milk, Almond & Hazelnut are my favourites. They taste great to drink when cold & have quite a sweet taste (ditch the sugar) so it’s great in coffee & on cereals. Think about it, do you really want to be a party to the horrific & abusive ways, theses sentient little babies are kept in? Would you deny them the right to be with their mother’s??  Many people think being vegetarian means eating nut cutlets, rice & beans; personally I hate that type of stuff. Whatever recipes that require meat, can be made just as well with Quorn.  Go to my Pinterest site to see recipes made with Quorn & also the pre-made Quorn burgers, mince, chicken etc. The Linda  McCartney range of meat free foods are also delicious, especially the sausages! My daughter isn’t vegan or vegetarian like me; but she eats what I do; with no complaints because she finds it so tasty!

MY Vegan & Vegetarian Pinterest site:-http://www.pinterest.com/presciousjules/vegan-vegetarian/

Please sign petition: http://www.cratedcruelty.ca/

CRATE CRITICS

“In all my experience, this is the worst, cruellest system that I have ever seen, in every sense, housing, health and stockmanship. [T]he system as seen on the video is now illegal in Europe, both in regard to individual housing, and denial of access to solid feed containing sufficient digestible fibre.”

John Webster, PhD

“Cows are highly intelligent and sentient, feeling beings, and it’s clear that the calves in this video are suffering. Deep fear and pain can be seen in their eyes and in their behavior. Calves are just as sentient as dogs – we would never tolerate such abuse inflicted upon a dog.”

Marc Bekoff, PhD

“Psychologically, the isolation and restricted movement [of veal crates] thwarts the calves need to suckle from their dam, prevents social interaction with their mother and with other calves, severely limits mental stimulation and investigative behavior, and disallows any sort of play.”

Debi Zimmermann, DVM

“Veal stalls… we need to get rid of, plain and simple.”

Temple Grandin, PhD

“This video provides clear evidence of deliberate institutionalized animal abuse in Canada’s veal industry. Veal calves are shown imprisoned in narrow stalls on slatted floors. Many animals are chained so tightly that they can barely move or can only perform a few short movements, which they do repeatedly.”

John Sorenson, PhD

“No animal should be so physically limited in its’ movement. The calf can stand or lie in one place only. He can’t turn around, lick his back, or stretch out. The chain around his neck ensures that he can’t lie down flat (something that calves do naturally). Not surprisingly, stereotypies are common. ”

Mary Richardson, DVM

Please sign the petition: http://www.cratedcruelty.ca/

 Please view at your own discretion – WATCH: Baby Calves Kicked, Beaten, and Chained in Crates for Veal

Published on 19 Apr 2014

Sickening cruelty to animals at a veal factory farm was captured on hidden camera by an investigator with Mercy For Animals Canada. Workers violently kick, punch, and torment baby calves who are crammed into filthy wooden crates so small they can’t even turn around or lie down comfortably for nearly their entire lives. Learn more and take action at: http://www.CratedCruelty.ca

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